i'm not jealous.

i totally understand the situation. just a little confused. i thought you enjoyed the last time and wanted more. that if there was just one possible day in the week, then that day would most definitely be free. well at least thats the way it was for me. even on another day when it wasnt, i made it. guess i shouldnt be so presumptous.

i'm sitting at home now coz the plan to watch "the match that divides the family" didnt work out. man u would prob lose anyway, as much as i hate to admit it, they're shitty without ronaldo. final destination was the most traumatising thing ever. okay i know i've been living under a rock coz i didnt know what it was all about, but why do people actually watch this stuff and enjoy it? the only thing that made it bearable for me was that i covered my head with my jacket everytime someone was gonna die ie 90% of the movie. i treasured my peace of mind more than the price of the ticket.

ponned lessons on friday coz it was just too comfortable snuggling up in the freezing cold. one of the hazards of staying in hall i guess. thursday union day i had lunch with shreya which was great since i havent seen her in forever. i still cant forget her mat story! gotta meet more often. then joined hushnom (+liling +guo'an) at jp. another group i miss. besides that lessons are quite standard besides the still foreign math, and lab where yingling and i make the worst lab partners ever. i still havent finished my report, dont understand a word of it. and its just the first and probably the easiest one!

i'm in a dilemma as to what to do for shong's birthday :( oh btw congrats macha for finally asking. you guys make such a cute couple and i wish you all the best!

school

its been okay i guess, though i seem to be nowhere near excited as i was before. i feel like i'm in jc! except that i'm taking triple science, econs instead of lit and effective comm instead of ki. and that chem is okay for a change and there's no lit to look forward to coz econs doesnt seem very artsy and i have to walk further distances to lessons and i dont have a lesbian lower to spend my life with. the parts which stay the same is that i hear the math lecturer speaking in a totally foreign language and cant seem to bring myself to do tutorials.

hall is alot better. the fact that i'm staying there is debatable since i seem to spend so little time there since i keep going home. i know its terrible and i really should be more involved. i thought this would be like my ideal situation, all the freedom and distance from home, but i guess all the time i spent at home recently made me alot more attached to it without me realising it. i need to watch tv and drink ginger beer on the sofa till i fall asleep and have dinner with the family and quarrel with people. but on the rare occasions i have spent time here, its great! hthts and supper. i know i should be spending more time with the og people, both for bie and hall, i alr feel myself drifting away, but i dont wanna sacrifice my relationships outside ntu either and its impossible having the best of both worlds.

The Plan isnt helping either. i know what i want and suddenly i want it so badly. i know its terrible, i mean it hasnt even been two weeks, but its also like if i feel so strongly after so short, it must be bad right? its not that i hate it, it really is okay. i just find it so meaningless since i know what i want. it sucks that i'm not very confident its gonna work out though. i'm making all my decisions hoping that it will but there still is a possibility that it wont, and if it doesnt, gosh that would be the worst nightmare ever.

i know, i'm thinking too much and i should just enjoy myself now. today was no lesson day, a day i'm gonna look forward to every week! i woke up late and had to go to kc to pass diane her photo for her coursework, so by the time we reached shanker's house it was pretty later. siva, shanker, joey, calister, shong and i. they were in the middle of some zombie show which was supposed to be funny but it seriously wasnt. tearing open a guy's stomach and spilling and streching his guts out everywhere, how can that be laughable? guys are weird and shanker's movie taste is horrible. we watched wanted instead of brokeback mountain which was still good although it was my 2nd time watching it. i was really sad to leave early for mass which took an mrt ride and $17.55 of cab fare and which i still missed most of and hardly stayed ard after for, but i'm really glad for shanker's house. i had so much fun, thanks for your hospitality shanks. i love the machas and shong!

tmr i'm going for a martial arts display with ray at nus, which means missing the netball ibg and stuff but i miss ray too! and i really should get started on my tutorials if i wanna get them done by tonight.

really have to sleep soon so the camp will come later when i have more time. right now the three other major events were 1) watching gi jones with the cousins + unclejeff. i thought it was awesome! the whole thing, not just channing tatum and marlon wayans though they did play a significant role. even the supposedly unrealistic science-y part. probably the geeky part of me talking. 2) i panicked when i got my phone and saw 10 missed calls and when 1 got through it was bran's friend telling me he was in abit of a situation ie dead drunk and unfortunately i couldnt help him. i put clothes at the backdoor for him but i dont think he was capable of understanding when his friend told him. anw he got caught (i think) since his breath stank and he couldnt even stand or walk straight. he just collapsed on the bed but his wonderful sister dragged him to the toilet, got him clothes, made him eat to get away the smell, freshened the place and washed the vomitus clothes. who says i'd make a terrible nurse? 3) i got my room keys, block 31 4th floor room 600. dunno my roomie though coz i think they still thought it would be shong. jiayi's in the same block and 4th floor too! i really feel its too rushed to move in before school starts though.