after a lecture about how my last week at home should be spent teaching the O level siblings instead of going out, i felt a little guilty so i asked pravin to bring my old stuff. he cabbed down to pass it to me on tuesday. we had thaipan and lepak-ed at the beach most of the time. it was just very peaceful and wonderful. then walked to parkway where we spent a lot of money at the arcade.

he sent me to novena where the plan was for machas joey, siva/saffir and i to pierce our ears. i was really scared of piercing up coz of the going blind thing. i didnt know who to listen to.
joey: dont worry la, its a one in a million chance. you wont be that one!
siva: eh dont say like that la, what if she is?
after "if you go blind, our faces will be the last things you see, so you'll remember us forever!" i was seriously reconsidering, and thanks to the goldsmith aunty who could only pierce lobes, i boringly repierced my 3rd hole for the millionth time. siva decided not to so was just joey and i. it was pretty uneventful till joey had to replace his stud with a transparent stick coz he was going back to work. i've done it and seen it done so many times, but we just couldnt get the stick through his ears! he started to feel nauseous from the feeling of something digging inside his flesh. i was seriously damn scared looking at him, looked like he was gonna faint! i also felt it was my fault coz he wouldnt have pierced in the middle of work if i didnt ask him to, and then he would have to replace the stud, and we wouldnt be in that situation. anyway we went to the handicap toilet and siva managed to force it through. so brave, i never would have been able to. he said he felt like he was murdering joey. its so much easier doing it yourself, macha must learn kay?

late for kc dinner which pissed nic chua off quite badly. we ate at crystal jade. the food was actually good! i've had a bad experience with chinese food so i expected it to be tasteless but besides the fried rice which i had to douse with chilli, everything was delicious, especially the la mian and xiao long bao. we also had icecream/starbucks and bitched alot before going home. i went home myself since papa was working overnight.

i overslept so i didnt have brunch with donny boi and just stayed home the whole day. i'm getting alot better at the staying at home thing, but not tmr hopefully.

congrats joey macha on your new friend ;)

ROD

i was kinda disappointed at first coz i smsed everyone from our batch but only ahhuat and i could make it. but it was ahhuat so it wasnt awkward or boring at all! btw did i mention that he got his first dan? i didnt even know he went for the blackbelt grading, or even training seriously in the first place! it wasnt long ago when he was a damn pro j1 whitebelt, and now a damn pro j3 blackbelt. super proud of him.

it was at costa sands downtown east and thanks to the lesson i learnt the last time, i didnt get lost! i didnt know most of the j1s names and actually forgot quite a few j2s too (oops) but it was still fun. peijiang and brandon's dancing and yasmin's singing and the mj teasing and all the camwhoring. ahhuat of course was great, always entertaining and making people laugh. we couldnt dunk chrys, jill or rachel coz it was bad timing for all of them (what are the odds of that happening?) so noone from the '08 batch kena-ed. but of course we couldnt miss the opportunity for yasmin. i took yasmin and some of her exco on an emo walk near the pool to talk about how they were coping and the problems they faced etc while the rest closed in on her to carry her away. unfortunately the pool was closed so we just drenched her from water bottles. so unfair! in my year the pool was closed too but i kena-ed anyway, and was embarrassingly shoo-ed out by the security guard.

although i wasnt very close to them coz they werent my batchmates, talking and laughing with them made me remember how much fun i had in vjctkd. we need to set up our alumni association!

emoed and took the train home with ahhuat while the rest went to simpang for supper, and then waited freaking long at kembangan mrt. apparently bran didnt say where i was waiting, so papa went to downtown east to pick me up. and since my phone's supposed to be confiscated i was uncontactable too.

i need to enjoy my last week of going out!

my plan worked! what actually happened is pravin came down with h1n1 and i really wanted to visit him. dont worry i dont have it, coz i came equipped with an n95, which pravin refused to let me into the house without and i wasnt allowed to take off either. i asked daph to help me ask his mum for permission, and then met the machas at the hospital to get my mask. it was the drager one somemore, which is like 99% effective against bacterial infiltration? ttsh is so different now, and i saw seri and diah in psa uniforms, so cute! took a little detour coz macha joey wanted to see torres at velocity. but we didnt actually see him coz it was so crowded, and everyone was so tall so poor joey who isnt very tall either decided just to let siva/saffir take a picture from his high vantage point. i witnessed his stunt of the day when he mistook the host for torres. anyway i think it was okay since joey doesnt support liverpool, just cacat unheard of teams. siva's getting promoted :) had bk with them before getting chicken rice for pravin and heading to bishan.

he was so poorthing! temperature high, no appetite, headache and medicine which made him drowsy. so he was sleeping most of the time but i was still glad i went. also went down to the shops with daph for awhile. anyway so you dont have to be worried about getting h1n1 from me since i was so well protected. if i do get it its prob from the hospital. they wear surgical masks now! macha joey says its like nothing already but i think it only applies to hospital people, the rest of the world is still scared of it.

college day was good although there was a little waking up/clothes problem in the morning. our darren was valedictorian of course, and i thought his speech and everything was awesome. made me feel so proud to be a victorian. and i'm still in awe of how he manages to be so good at so many ccas and other activities and academics and still be such a likeable guy. shong baked cookies which i have yet to taste but i'm sure they're lovely, and thanks for the postcard LL! we talked to people including mrC who told us that he had to recommend and write a reason for the award so i'm grateful.

the cousins played a little street soccer after dinner, its really not easy playing with a group of indians when the lights are off. gabriel's birthday icecream cake too. i got a lecture from papa about how i'm not sharing about my life to my parents. i mean what am i supposed to do, come running into the house and showing off a cert for cca award? as bran nicely put it, "we just have over-emotional parents la". okay gotta sleep soon if we're going for stanne's feast tmr.

enemy of the people

or at least thats what nicolette thinks Public Enemy is called. she didnt wanna watch it and for once i have to give her credit, it was horrible! the only thing that made it bearable was johnny depp. most of it was gunfire and speaking in such a strong accent that we couldnt make out. nic chua cheryl and i had lunch at taka and walked around for awhile, i got a grey plain dress which looked okay except that its really short. laura and beins joined us for the movie. we were being total bitches when we talked, after the movie and in the mrt on the way home. a senior was on the mrt and probably heard every word. so embarrassing!

indian rojak for dinner. this is really rare as my parents are extremely paraniod about it after the food poisoning incident. i think its the only rojak that should be eaten. not being racist or anything but chinese rojak is like microwavable prata. i'm still irritated that michael scofield died in prisonbreak, but the finale was good. i almost cried during the video part, and he looked so good!

drool with me.

pravin's down with the flu and i have this awesome plan which i really hope is gonna work. wish me luck!

machas day out!

the day started out pretty screwed coz i was supposed to meet ivy and shihui for the medical checkup at 8.30am at pioneer but i slept through all my alarms except the last at 7.30. rushed like hell but only managed to reach at almost 9.10. to make things worse, ivy overslept and shihui came early so she waited for an hour by herself! its a miracle she didnt murder me, she was so nice about it. it was also a new experience peeing in a cup for the first time. we waited for ivy but i couldnt join them to eat as the machas had finished their medic meeting.

it felt FREAKING GOOD seeing them again after so long. siva/saffir looked different coz his hair had grown much longer, but joey looked like the same cute boyboy. he used this to manipulate the seoul garden lady into letting us all pay students prices although the other two didnt have student passes. gosh if only she knew what an old fart joey actually is!

it was pretty ironic that siva and i, the two indians, had to sit on one side so we could eat beef while the chinese joey couldnt. (siva is not a sinner, he's actually saffir who's muslim and allowed beef.) we ate and ate but joey and i didnt seem to get full. siva stopped really early and sat there wistfully thinking of desserts, which we only took at 5plus. then we finally left coz a lady was complaining about us. we kinda deserved it, we were supposed to be done by 4 and had started at 1! dunno how we ate so much. but i really didnt feel full, not like sakae buffets where i'm just bursting after. so sakae buffet next!

i didnt stay to watch the movie with the machas and seri, but just the lunch was a really great time. i laughed so hard at joey's jokes and siva's stunts and all the stories! only quite disappointed that i didnt get to meet seri or diah, miss them both. according to siva's calculations, our last meeting was more than a month ago. cannot cannot! we need to meet much more often. my machas bring me much joy :)

like cinderella i slogged and cleaned the house the whole day so that when i wanted to go out at night it wouldnt seem like going out was all i did. i think my work wasnt appreciated much :( i cabbed down to save time, which didnt really happen since i spent a hell lot of time walking around lost in the wrong place! apparently there's a costa sands pasir ris and costa sands downtown east which, while very near each other, are completely different places. mostly just ate and took turns playing shihui's psp before i went home.

then i started coughing like crazy, the kind which really hurts your throat and chest and makes it difficult to breathe. i was trying to talk to shong on the phone and it wasnt very easy but i'm glad i survived through it. we didnt exactly have a quarrel but things had been a little strained, but now its good again :) i didnt sneak out for supper or go out today thanks to the horrid cough. tmr medical checkup with ivy and shihui!

i cant believe i have no pictures of the last few days!

thursday - lunch with bom and raymay. bom was supposed to tell ray that she ONLY wanted PASTAMANIA, and that she asked michelle who gave in and agreed. ray was supposed to violently protest that those days of torture were over, but although unhappy she gave in almost immediately. not fun. anyway we had cafe cartel and talked mostly about orientation camps and cute guys and of course, people. i thought the food was horrible but company was great.

friday - woke up relatively early after 5 of nic chua's missed calls and rushed to mpcl for badminton with cali, beins and nic chua. if anyone is unaware of how much i suck at it, the granny pe teacher had to extract me from the lesson and ask me to pratice my serving on the stage instead of actually playing. what i did play, with xilun, didnt deserve to be called badminton. i was praying for nicolette to come so i could have a similarly non-sportsy partner but she had to go to the bank or smth and escaped. but in the end i think i didnt suck as badly as i used to! okay so i still cant serve for nuts and can only hit the shuttlecock in one way, but i think i improved a hell lot. so proud of myself :) after sakae lunch we headed home where i was supposed to prepare to go out with flabbywabby jessie for dinner, but couldnt coz of a stupid little conflict. really pissed me off, i'm not planning to forgive anytime soon.

saturday - st joseph's church for some mass instead of the usual family gathering. the food was fantastic. a few of them went to some pub after that and the rest were supposed to go to kallang leisure park for icecream, but we ended up in macs coz the little kids who couldnt take spicy food didnt have dinner in church. but after that bran diane mark and i went to vivo for harrypotter. it sucked so bad! but it was fun coz it was the four of us. such a waste that it had to be the night the silva cousins didnt come.

sunday - without going to church! i know i sound like some anak satan but church really should always be on saturday, sleeping in on sunday is glorious. i slacked around most of the day, and went for our original friday plans with flabbywabby. as expected from beach outings, it was mostly emo shit. and since i'm still fresh from an overdose from it, i shall express a little of what i'm still thinking.

i'm actually quite tired about talking about relationships and stuff. screw the past, we dont have to keep reliving what could have been coz its not gonna happen. screw the future, we cant honestly know what is or isnt gonna happen so whats the point in making such claims. and the present, we should just leave it as it is. i'm tired answering stuff like whether or not i really love him and if its gonna last etc. i'm happy, isnt that all that matters? it also made me think about friendships, what people mean to me and what i mean to them. i know there are people who appear like my friends but who really arent, i just dont like to face it. i dunno how to deal with it since i still dont wanna lose them.

okay i realise this makes it sound like i had an absolutely terrible time with jessie, which really isnt true. its just sort of coming to me now, afterward, when i'm alone. it was different just now, alternately emoing, joking and promising never to drift apart again over subway, sticks and long walks. he really is a good guy, no matter how much of an arrogant jerk he seems. i really hope we'll be able to stick to our promises.

back to vj day

yesterday shong and my plans to relive our jc days finally materialised! it didnt go exactly as planned coz we both went back to sleep after waking up, and only properly woke up at 10plus. this meant missing harris' 10.25am lecture we were planning to attend. we arrived in school at 12smth, when people were starting to leave, and headed to the toilet to change into our uniforms. i'd totally forgotten how high the skirt was! but it felt really good wearing it again.

we met mrC for lunch as we had planned the day before. sitting embarrasingly at the teacher's table. we told him that we were moving in together, meaning of course that we were gonna be roomies. he asked us why we didnt wanna live with our parents, and said that cohabiting is common in western cultures but not so much for us and stuff like that. he was hilarious!

after that we had our own lunch, which wasnt very good, and learnt from brudder rain that there was gonna be a bio lecture at 1.55pm. shong's junior provided us with pieces of paper since we didnt have notes. there was this seating arrangement according to classes so that they could do contact tracing for h1n1 so first we sat with her in the centre block, but then we thought that brudder rain had an even less obvious seat at the side back and sat with him instead. unfortunately, the lecturer recognised him as being from s39, who were supposed to sit right in front, so as s39ers we had to follow him to the only available seats, right in front of the lecturer! it was so embarrasing walking to the front of an lt we didnt belong in, shong said she swears she could hear hissing. we spent our time taking down occassional notes but mostly writing to each other wondering how we were gonna escape. thankfully after one period he announced that the h1 bio people could leave, and we practically ran out.

so enough of lessons, we spent the rest of our time going to our favourite haunts to take pictures. outside lt5, loserspot, behind t-block, library etc. we also collected our A level certs from the office where they looked at us in our uniforms and thought we were crazy. it was in a nice folder with our cert and testimonial and t3a in nice paper! such a difference from a govt-aided school like kc. we also got fruit juice and sat in the treehouse, except that this time there was nothing to watch.

after school we went to katong mall to do our eyebrows. my first time threading! i was really scared so shong went first and it took pretty long although she does hers pretty regularly, so when it was time for my fuzzy caterpillars and her first stroke was like ripping my skin apart, i thought i was gonna die. thankfully i survived it! :)

we went to parkway and decided against using our uniforms to get kfc student meals, and had jollibean cheese pancakes and bought earrings before changing so we could go the arcade for ddr! its really the most fun thing ever. i dunno why lately i've been discovering alot of things which i used to find ahlian eg karaoke and ddr are really really fun. we did quite a few songs and improved till we were sweating and too tired for more. after a simulator ride, we had macs and i went home while she met melyssa.

such an eventful day, in contrast to the boring one i had at home today doing nothing. i didnt even go to the salon to rebond my hair with brandon. tmr lunch with ray and bom!

marking's no fun when you cant include your own comments. some of them seriously deserved a "its WRONG, pay attention when i'm going through corrections" or a "writing so small that i cant even read it doesnt make it neat" or a "are you lazy, blind, or just stupid enough to think i wouldnt notice that you left a whole page blank?" i also did some typing today. so see, i'm actually doing work!

in the afternoon i went out with my dear protector jiekai for astons and icecream chefs. he was really gentlemanly and great company! i'm glad i have such a nice east buddy.


my vj uniform is calling out to be ironed.

end of the break

i was really surprised it happened so fast, two days instead of the month/week/till the end of the weekend. and even more surprised at the decision but hey i'm not complaining. i know half the world wants to kill me right now but i'm following my heart on this one. it wasnt easy for me too considering the amount of brainwashing i had done in that short time. but i just cant throw away everything we had just like that. so that, plus during the little bit of praying i did ytd afternoon, i prayed either for it to work out or for me to get over him, whatever God's decision was. okay i feel so stupid even typing this out. but i am really thankful of course. we're gonna make it work together this time.

i didnt go for the og outing coz mummy insisted i had to go for novena since i missed quite a few weeks. then we went to pick up jerome, and since there was no place in unclegerald's car i had to go with them for some aunty's mass, alone! its horrible enough having weird old aunties hugging and kissing you (no indian aunties dont kiss, they sniff!) and talking to you in indian languages you dont understand till they finally ask if you know who they are, and you smile awkwardly and shake your head. its worse when there are no siblings or cousins to escape somewhere else with or to talk to so you wont seem so free and available for aunty attacks! so anyway i attended two masses and one novena and didnt even get to spend much time with the cousins. i'm such an angel.

waking up for 8.45am mass is not good, especially after not enough sleep. after that all sixteen of us went for breakfast at chaichee. delicious! but we came home to naggings about the room and now all of us are irritable and fighting with her. we need sleep!

we decided to meet at my house instead so shong came from work and richboy jessie cabbed from his house in novena. jessie had never been in my house before! he's sent me home loads of times and my parents him pretty well but he's never stepped inside, so weird! i wasnt a very good host coz there were no drinks (shong drank milo), only one xbox controller, nth to watch except ice age 2 which was watched with lousy subtitles and a really low volume since brandon was having tuition. but it was really great seeing jessie and shong after so long, and they like each other! :) such a sense of satisfaction.

he thinks he can pull off the smouldering eyes look

trying to make jessie smile

two of my bestfriends

after that jessie went to meet his friend at bayshore. being the egotistical dong he is, he refused to let my mum give him a lift, then got lost and cabbed again. shong and i went to bugis for class outing where instead of steamboat we ate at some japanese place. i was pretty sceptical about japanese pasta but gosh it was really good! we walked around and had desert at this chinese-y but somehow damn popular place in liang seah street called ah chew's smth. we used to joke about the ah chew hotel there, thinking it must be a really cmi place if it was named after ah chew. we didnt know ah chew was really a famous guy! the mango pomelo sago was heavenly, nice big chunks of sweet mango, so the wait was totally worth it.

another highlight was that shong and i decided to wear heels. i havent worn heels very much in the past one and a half years and when i do they're really short so 2.5 inches was already such an achievement for me. it was actually nice! being not-so-short and talking to shong on almost the same level and bending down to give hugs for a change. i'm sure i'll get used to the uncomfortableness so for the moment, its heel-shopping time!

s33 at bugis!

N-T-U

shong and i also got married, with LL necklaces. we had a ring bearer marcus and photographer mervin who took a picture of us with "bridal concept" in the background. they were so disturbed. anyway it was great to see everyone and catch up and hear the ns boys talk about nothing else but ns and and just hang out as a class again.

aww

okay so that was shitty

i guess i saw it coming but that didnt make it any easier. i must have sounded like an absolute baby. i know its not the end but it feels like it dammit. it kinda sucks that its happening at a time i need it not to happen the most. what hurts was that he knew the problem and still pretended, so for dunno how long its just been fake. and its just reminding me of my turn some time back. i refused to listen to people at that time, i knew i could make it work and return to what it used to be. and it did. but i dont know if he'll do the same.

so of course i turned to my friends. i had a conference call with jessie and shong who didnt even know each other but talked for like more than two hours. most of the time it was about other random stuff but it helped me feel alot better. they also gave me some advice that, although it doesnt seem like it, i really appreciate and am thinking about. also thanks to shanker for all the smses and being there. i havent been close to jessie in some time and havent known shanks for very long and it felt really good knowing they were there for me. and of course my LL, always by my side. i'm so blessed to have friends like you guys.

so i'm not a mess anymore :) we have a class outing later and i'm gna meet shong earlier, after her work. and hopefully, if he's not too exhausted from captain's ball, jessie too. hahas retarded little bro plan. so exciting!

i'm such a wonderful sister

which dong goes for O levels without her ID? i woke up to a msg from her asking me to bring it to her school for her coz she had oral. i slacked the morning away and finally dragged myself down to pass it to her. then i went to cold storage coz i felt like eating random stuff for lunch. some ham thing, a can of potato and spinach soup (tastes a hell lot better than it sounds), cheese and a big bottle of kickapoo. so my lunch ended up costing like $12, not good for someone so broke.

i slacked the rest of the day till first shong then pravin called. i was lying on the bed talking to them and kinda slept of after that, till night when it was almost dinner. chuen chuen chicken rice! as usual i had to have another plate but its not my fault, it was good! pravin went to the gym with his friend and worked out too much. he seriously doesnt need any more muscles, soon he'll just be this rock. we're supposed to go out on friday but i doubt it'll work since his school finishes at 5 and he has tkd at 8 and i'm supposed to have class outing at 7. sat plans arent gna work either since he has anusha's birthday and i have og outing. tmr tentative plans for ttsh ppl seoul garden.

bran didnt help me get my sml since he had no money. he offered me his but i dont like it so i dunno. the michael jackson tribute thing is getting boring, they keep playing and playing it! gotta find smth more exciting to do.

meeting kc ppl after a long time

the grounding meant i missed out on alot but finally i got to see them again! this time was nic chua, beins, cali and cheryl. we met at vivo, ate at this place called superdog which seriously had food portions that were too small, and then shopped. i didnt but anything although i was forced to try clothes.

i know t-shirts are boring but they're comfortable and my attire of choice! i'd wear t-shirts every day if i could. not that i dont like dresses or skirts or nice tops but i have to be in the mood to shop for them, and today i was in a totally t-shirt mood. needless to say i wasnt gna get any of those shopping with kc ppl, so all i spent in today was food. ben&jerry's and fishballs and otah.

being at vivo suddenly reminded me of pravin coz for some reason we went there quite a few times. on his birthday, the day before we got together, when we ate at carl's junior and i finished my burger faster than him. and another time when we were supposed to be a secret from our families and were eating at haagen daz when his uncle msged "how's the icecream?" and my one and only trip to the gym. i miss those days.

then we went to nic chua's house and had dinner, there was such a spread and the food was delicious! and she eats food like that every day! i dont get along with the dog. i dont care if its a puppy and its really small and friendly, i dont trust anything with teeth. we played guitar heroes which i absolutely suck at! i couldnt play anything more than easy with the guitar, and at first i couldnt even do easy with the drums. 50% for beginner! but later i could do one at easy, such an accomplishment! nic chua's sister said diane sucks at it too, so maybe it runs in the blood. anyway i'm so inspired coz its so fun, maybe i shall agree to pool money with bran to get it. but after i go to uni i wont be able to play it, so will it be a waste of money? i'm so broke anw since my timesheet thing is still not settled. argh whats so difficult abt a damn signature? we also played abit of wii sports which is really fun too and my arm is still aching though i only played one game. i need exercise!

HUSHNOM <3

feels like kc open house or the first day in s43 or smth when i feel like omg i'm entering X yrs of hell and then i have an experience tt totally changes the way i look at things and i'm like omg my life rocks! :)

screw the chinese, i'm definitely gonna learn it but i'll survive somehow. the camp, my group, everything was awesome! they must have put in so much effort into everything. alot of seniors were involved in the planning, mark said the ratio was 1:1 which is crazy la. but now i can understand, i'd also wanna come back and be involved. it was the coolest camp ever!

so i left early and ended up not taking my btt coz i got the day wrong and not meeting pravin coz he was sick. hands down most unsuccessful btts goes to me! on saturday night at the usual family gathering the older cousins (gabriel and above) went to 7-11 to get our drinks (or in the case of gabriel mango juice) and sat at the park connector to talk. on sunday diane and i got new phones, i got a samsung star. i didnt wanna admit it but i actually didnt wanna get a too ex phone in case i lost it again. i dont like losing phones, its like this curse on me, seriously! then the cousins met up again but this time with matt and jerome and unclejeff to watch transformers. megan fox is not that hot! bran sitting next to me going on and on throughout the show about her and i was thinking why dont i see it? anw i was surprised i didnt get a headache from all the robot bashing so it was okay la. but we have to have another older cousins only outing soon. who's gonna watch hannah montana with me?

i resolved to stay home ytd to be available to the O level siblings who were on youth day holiday, but i didnt do any helping and it looked like they didnt do much studying either, so besides lunch at auntyjanet's it was pretty much a wasted day. out with kc ppl in awhile!